Sorry it has been so long since I last posted, there is so much that happened.

So I found out I am pregnant! Which is exciting!! My wife and I have wanted a child since before we married and it is such a blessing for this to have finally taken place! As of today, I (the carrier) am 10 weeks and 5 days along. We had our first ultrasound done as well as heard the heart beat. I have been saying since day one of finding out that I think we are having a boy!!! Which is what I want and my wife is rooting for a girl!  Initially, we wanted to have two, but there is no way I can do this twice! I simply am not made to be pregnant!!!! It is not common, where I am from that is, to hear women loathing pregnancy!!! I loathe it with a passion! Additionally, we have had some slight craziness that has happened during these 10 weeks which have given us a bit of fear so to say. I personally do not think I can do this again for a few reasons.  Mostly, everything we had to go through to get pregnant was simply too much for me to endure again. Nevertheless, we are over the top excited about this new addition to our little family and will be more than satisfied with one child plus our fur baby! So that has been crazy exciting!!!

Secondly, I was able to get a job working at the local Denny's diner as a dishwasher. While I was there I had some bleeding and stopped working for a couple weeks till I got everything cleared from the Dr.  Since my appointment where I was cleared, this past Tuesday; I've been put back on the schedule doing a little lighter work.  On weekends I am going to be doing some hosting, which should be easy enough. Boring, but easy. I am just happy to get out of the apartment on the weekends.  House arrest is the hardest on the weekends. It truly gets to you.  Being locked down from 5pm Friday till 730am Monday really takes a toll on you especially when there is no one but my dog home with me during the weekend because my wife works 6am-10pm Sat and Sun. So yeah, being alone makes the time crawl. It is pure torture.

House arrest, as I have said many times before to people is dehumanizing in so many ways. It truly is.  I cant run to the store for milk when we are out of it, I cant go for a walk, or meet up with people to hang out, catch up, I cant Christmas or birthday shop..... Possibly the worst is scheduling appointments or interviews and letting my PO know about them but then not getting an confirmation or approval from her means I cannot go even after the appointment was made.  It is incredibly frustrating. Many appointments I have had to cancel at the last minute because I have not heard back from my PO for the approval, same with job interviews. It is incredibly annoying.  Yes, I am by law considered a criminal, HOWEVER, that does not mean I am not human and my basic needs should no longer be met. It does not mean that I should not be granted the right to attend appointments or job interviews....which according to the rules, you have to have a job while you are on probation.  Otherwise it is considered a violation and you can be thrown in jail for it.  Try getting a job on probation with a fresh conviction, a felony at that. No one wants to take the risk of hiring a felon. Even though the Govt offers tax breaks for companies that hire felons.  That is not enough incentive for companies tho, because it is incredibly difficult to secure a job with a record.